Is it really almost 2011? This year flew by like a frisbee. I just can't even believe I got this far. In 2009 I thought that I would never see 2010 and really ever feel alive again and I laid and cried about this many, many nights. I laid and wondered if I ever would find "him" or if I would ever be skinny. Truth is that now I know because, (it is the future) that it all turned out ok, with a few bumps in the road and a little heartbreak, I survived 2009, and most of 2010. I want to be a good person. I want to be a good mom to my ONLY child (even though she does not share my DNA, I still want to be good to her and for her) I just can't seem (even with the prozac) to kick depression OUT of my bed! I want it to vanish, never to return.
I will hope for 2011.
You are a wonderful woman! Love your writing and your analysis. :-) Love you! Judy
ReplyDeleteDepression can be really tough to deal with, even with medication. My wife has been fighting it for -- gosh, decades by now. And it hasn't been easy for any of us.
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