Birthdays...

As my 32nd Birthday approaches, I am once again reminded that time is not on my side anymore. I find myself constantly thinking, rethinking, and thinking again always analyzing every ones words to me. I get my feelings hurt so easily these days. I need tougher skin. I truly do. I can not seem to shake that "feeling bullied" syndrome I had as a child. When I was younger I was awkward and thin with large knee caps and bright "orange-red" hair and tons of freckles and pale vampire white skin. Kids just disliked me, so I tried harder. Teachers disliked me even more, so I tried even harder. I sometimes wonder if my intelligence level would have been higher had I had a normal adjusted childhood...See there I go, even when blogging I start analyzing things. I really want my 30's to be far better than my 20's and while my marriage has ended the possibilities for me are astronomical and I am on the verge of extraordinary, I can just feel it.