Country Karaoke...

This is something I have truly come to enjoy and feel ease about. We do a fantastic live show, I am not going to lie. But when we do this little bar in the middle of nowhere on Thursdays and Fridays, I am just filled with joy. While I do enjoy the big crowds, the clapping and all the love that I get from people who come out. I LOVE the small venue, it is personal and enjoyable and makes me feel the most comfortable. This is where I can come out on the porch and sip a drink while the train hails in the background and the smell of rain illuminates the air. I watch these older men who you can tell their lives have not been kind to them, they drink, they flirt and inevitably - they get in there small economy sized cars and they drive home, where probably waiting is a really angry wife - who just wishes secretly he would love her just a little bit more, instead of the alcohol. It is all sad really. My purpose in all this? To bring the joy of music to all different types of people during their work weeks. I lived in a marriage where I prayed daily he would choose me over the booze, while I won in the end and he is almost 5 years sober, the booze actually was the victor because we are no longer together because all those days and nights of drinking made me fall out of love with him. In the most difficult way possible, we became best friends. There are all these ironic things about what I do now on a weekly basis. Through it all, I am growing, I am changing and ultimately - I will find peace. In the meantime, I will sing my country karaoke with my country friends and I will love every single second of it.